As a mum who works from home, I often find myself trying to juggle between my work and my personal life. As I have said before, I work on the blog when Alyssia naps & again in the evening once she has gone to bed but sometimes I am behind schedule & have to meet certain deadlines and this means that sometimes I have to stick her in front of the telly for half an hour with some snacks in order for me to be able to get sh#t done. But that’s okay, we all do it, right?
I recently got paid & treated myself to a new blog theme so I’ve been quite busy trying to get all of that up and running as well as running around after a toddler and replying to emails. But somewhere along the line we have got to find a balance, I love routine, I love to be organised & I like
the thought of having my sh*t together. But today I did something out of the ordinary, after a busy morning on the blog trying to understand HTML codes and reading up about “that thread” you know what I’m talking about, the bitchy Mumsnet thread.. I decided to take a break. Rob was home from work, Alyssia was pulling all the nappies out of the nappy drawer and there was wet wipes everywhere, you know the situation right? So I shut the lid of my laptop, put my phone on charge in the other room & sat down to watch a Disney film with Alyssia, Tangled to be precise – one of our absolute faves.
Alyssia had been hyper all morning, and I have noticed that she has started to be ‘naughty’ (pulling nappies out of the nappy drawer, throwing things on the floor, you know the drill) when she’s bored & wants attention. It was at that moment that I realised, I’m not paying enough attention to her, she wants me, she wants me to spend some time with her. How had I not realised this? Why was I so focused on working that I had let her get to this point?
Ugh, mum guilt! But anyway, we stuck a DVD on & sat watching Tangled whilst eating popcorn, what a brilliant end to a stressful day. And to make things even better, this popcorn was ‘Organix sweet cinnamon’ healthy, yummy & autumnal.. winning! Alyssia absolutely loved it & demolished the whole packet within seconds so there’s another toddler snack we will be continuing to buy, they’re just £2 in the supermarkets for a pack of 4. Although she didn’t sit quietly for the whole film, the moments we had together just sitting on the sofa cuddling were what made me realise that I need to do this more. Mummy & Daughter time is so so important & it’s clear to me now that she wants that too. Its nice to be behind the camera, it’s nice to have your sh#t together but it’s also nice just to sit down and cuddle your little one without worrying about everybody else.
*this post was written last week.