Alyssia is 14 months old now, and it’s just hit me – I have a toddler.
Since turning 1 she has learnt so much, she learnt to walk a week before her first birthday, she got her 2 first teeth in the same week, and has all in all become more confident in herself.
She has suffered with separation anxiety
when I leave the room, or if I pop to the shop and she stays home with her dad..
She stayed at her nannies (my mums house) the other night and she got really upset when we left, I could hear her crying as I walked away and it was absolutely heartbreaking, I burst into tears.. I couldn’t leave her like that, I went back after a few minutes and she was absolutely fine snuggling into her nanny. She’s always fine after a few minutes but i think it’s the initial realisation that I am leaving her and what if I don’t come back? I will always come back..
She has learnt to to do little things like cuddling her babies or her teddies, brushing her hair, how to push her baby in the pram, how to get on & off her bouncy zebra, how to open cupboards etc..
She has learnt to be alot more independent, she will happily go off and play by herself whereas before she was always very clingy, this is such a good thing but at the same time it’s quite strange for me.. I’m always used to having her at my feet 24/7 so to then realise that my baby doesn’t need me as much anymore.. that’s quite hard to accept..
I don’t spend alot of time with other parents but I wish I did (my goal for this year was to make more friends and go to more groups but this is still a challenge for me at the minute) – anyway, this means that Alyssia doesn’t get to socialise with other children much apart from her cousins that we see weekly. We went to a birthday party the other week and there were a few other children there, however I couldn’t help but notice how much of a ‘loner’ my child was.. does she need a sibling? Or would that be crazy? she is so independent she just runs off and does her own thing..
But most of all she has learnt to test the boundaries… Oh my god… the terrible two’s seem to have come early?? She has started getting really frustrated at things, and having random meltdowns during the day.. she is the cheekiest little girl I have ever met, and of course it would be my little girl… she has the cheekiest grin and she knows exactly when she’s doing something naughty because she’ll suddenly go quiet or she’ll giggle to herself first (major giveaway babe) she’s so funny but sometimes it’s hardwork.. I know she’s still very young, but how many times do i need to say the words ‘no’ or ‘get down’ in a day?? She is a daredevil, forever climbing up on things or trying to jump off things.. you really do have to have eyes in the back of your head..
I just can’t get over how quickly my little girl is growing up.. it’s almost like she went to bed a baby and woke up a toddler??
I’m finding it really hard to come to terms with and I don’t know if this is a normal thing to feel as a first time parent?
Please let me know in the comments below..
Thanks for reading,
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